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Jacob continued to stare at the floor not knowing what to do or say in their silence. That heart of his, which he still had and what still alive and pumping by the way, sped up with the thought of her knowing and how she would actually react and take it. Jacob gulped slightly and then looked over at her fidgeting around. A smirk curled up on those lips of his slowly with her clue remarked. " Well thank you, I tried to make it cute, fun, and easy. " A low chuckle came from his lungs though it was pretty noticeable that it was a forced one. As they sat in silence for a few more moments he felt like a someone snatched his breath away when she mentioned that she knows he imprinted. It was time and it had to come out. Who knows maybe it would turn out better then his mind was letting on. All this anger thoughts disappeared from earlier. This was all that was important now. The truth. His feelings and how she would take it. Jacob felt his jaw drop when she spoke next. Who was it that he imprinted on? How could she not tell that it was her. All the things he did with her? All the caring things that he did and all the loving things that he did. He stayed with her at night, even though she said he shouldn't he knew that deep down Bella wanted him to stay. How he would gently hold her close to her, how he would say her name so differently then he would say any other person's name. Once more did he tense up, almost ready to explode on her but not in a horrible way. Jacob stood up clenching his fists for a moment and facing the door instead of Bella. He had to control himself. He had to calm down. Nothing good came out of being to frustrated. Jacob didn't want to hurt Bella in a way that Sam hurt Emily. No. That could never happen. Though he was trying to calm down he felt himself start to shake slightly and he began to take a few deep breaths to calm himself down. After a few moments the shaking began to control itself until it faded away and he was himself again and not some giant monster ready to explode. " Who Bella? Who do I care deeply for, more deeply then any one person could feel for someone? Who can't I stay away from for even one second of a day. Who- " He paused and laughed to himself slightly and turned to face her " Who keeps me up a night because they are not next to me? Who am I dying to hold and kiss in a way that I can't do right at this moment?! " His voice grew louder, but not in a mean way only because when he thought about how she couldn't realize it was her irritated him. Almost like everything he did never once made an impact on her. " Who is it that I look out for at night? Making laps around the house just so make sure nothing will even touch a strand of their hair. WHO could it be? " A few tears swelled in his eyes due to frustration but nothing more, they came and left. " Bella! It's you! It's always been you! "
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| moving on up, to the east side to a delux apartment |
[16 May 2010|05:25am] |
moving to ![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) pattinsonthomas, kindly direct yourselves to the new f/o because it is indeed very lonely.
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| update suggestion post |
[09 Apr 2010|12:41pm] |
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i will classify this as the official drop box for update ideas, and suggestions because we all know that my updates need a bit of help. i'm open to everything and anything. also comments will be screened for your protection just in case you are confessing your adoration for one robert pattinson, thank you.
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